Ahhh, twists and turns, the story of our lives.
I think that some of our twists are a result of a Father who loves us enough to want to teach us to be dependent on Him. He knows that given the opportunity, I will plan our next two years out down to the letter, even if I don’t realize I’m doing it – and he loves me enough not to let me do it. He knows there is more beauty in full dependence on Him than there is in a carefully planned out life.
I’m also fairly certain that some of our twists are the result of our fight against dependence, our attempt to plan. I’ve found that without a very concerted effort to listen, to wait, to follow, I end up trying to take steps that he hasn’t yet led me to, only to find myself doing a little backtracking and learning to wait patiently on God to do the leading.
Either way, twists and turns can be a good thing. As long as we allow them to draw us closer to Christ instead of just into disappointment when plans shift from the blueprints our hard heads have concocted.
We continue to work with Samaritan Village – although as we do, it is clear that there is a great need for someone to be here working with the organization on structure and sustainability. There is just work that needs to be done to ensure that the organization can continue to grow and serve in the long term. Really, in order for us to be able to serve in that way, we need to be here – going to board meetings and being available for phone communication. Things we cannot do from Africa, essentially.
So, we will continue to work with Samaritan Village from here until God shows us otherwise. (I can almost hear the collective sigh of relief from our children’s grandparents. :) )
Other news? This means we will be able to continue to foster right now! I am joyful over this. Although, God leading, I’d be happy to go to Tanzania, my heart was mourning having to leave fostering. It is something I am so passionate about, and God has given me such a burden for. So, praise God, we’re back in the saddle!!
We actually have a respite placement coming this evening – and since accepting the respite placement have had no fewer than 4 phone calls for other children in need of placement. (Have I mentioned we need more foster parents?) So, here we go.
And I’m going to try to be better about blogging again. I plan to make an effort to blog more about Samaritan Village, the fam, pictures, fostering, and this journey of refinement God’s got us on.
I so pray that God can be glorified in all of this. In the twists and turns, in the refining of my heart, in whatever ways he chooses to use us. That is my prayer.