April 28, 2011

My Littlest Baby.

I was going to say 'My Little Baby', but really, Sylvia is not so big either - so littlest it is.

Your sister is at a friend's house playing this morning, so it's just you and me in this very quiet house.  We have to soak this up, because your sister's presence does not lend itself to quietness. 
You are laying on my chest, making very sweet newborn noises, and I just can't believe you are my daughter.  As we sit here, and I pick at your newborn skin that is peeling away (I am a natural born picker, so just get used to it.) I am praying for you.

Lord, please let her grow to know you.
Lord, help me to be the Mommy she needs me to be.
Lord, when she's sixteen and some sketch guy tells her he thinks she's hot, please let the first thing through her mind be - "I am so much better than hot, okay?"
Let her meet someone like her Daddy to fall in love with.
Let her be strong hearted (hard headed?) but gentle.
Let her find her beauty in her heart and not in the mirror.
Let her be courageous and fearless..........but careful (is that a cop out?).
Lord, help me to guard her heart.
When she's in high school, and she hates me because I won't let her wear that dress, and we aren't totally in love with that sketch guy who told her she's hot - give me the strength and love enough to be her Mommy, and know that much of what she hates me for now, she will thank me for later.
Lord, help me to soak. it. up.
....And thank you.  I could not have asked for a bigger blessing. 

I look at you and pray.  We'll work through this life together - this Mommy/daughter thing.
I feel like we're starting to get to know each other.  You're becoming mine, and I'm becoming yours.  I guess I just want you to know that I love you more than life.  It's not something you will understand until you have a littlest baby of your own.  My love is fierce, and I will always do my best for you.

You will have lots of brothers and sisters as you grow up.  Such is the life as a foster family.  I hope that you love it as much as your sister does.  Let me know if you don't. 

I'm going to go now - soak up this snuggle time that I have with you until your sister comes home.  I love you.  More than you will ever know.  I am so excited to be your Mommy forever, and I can't wait to watch you grow (but don't get in any hurry.).

  love you, love you, love you,

P.S.  Your hair cracks me up.


  1. beautiful Maggie, she wil be all that and so much more.

  2. Almost brought tears to my eyes, as I think of the prayers I pray for Coralyn. I ditto everything you just said, for all of our girls! Thank you for sharing your heart...it inspires me to be a better mommy too!

  3. lovely.

    I wanted a picture though, especially of the hair :)


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