Two years ago today we got a phone call.
There was a little girl, three years old, very sick, and in need of a home. God softened our hearts.
“Can you take her?”
A thread passed through the loom and was pressed in tight as to never come unraveled. A thread of a different color. A thread of unknown origin. A thread of anxious preparation, unknown challenge. What would it look like in our tapestry?
We went and picked her up at the hospital, so sad, so scared.
Another thread passed through the loom and was pressed in tight. A thread of trust, a thread of faith, a thread of change.
We went through visits. Up and down. Back and forth. Trauma after trauma.
We went through vomit. Refusal to eat. Eating challenges and, well, not eating challenges.
Painful bedtimes. Trauma tantrums. Disregulation. Hating us. Loving us. Confusion.
Whump. Whump. Whump. Thread after thread pressed tight into the weaving. Different colors. Some light, some dark. Some thick and hard to weave in. Some silky and soft.
Finally trust. Finally attachment. Finally smiles. Finally food.
Joined by her sister.
Threads of sparkling beauty added to The Artist’s creation.
Final goodbyes. Painful last experiences. Ties damaged, but hopefully not broken.
Threads woven with blistered fingers.
What was it that The Artist was doing? As we watched one thread woven through at a time we couldn’t tell. Sometimes it seemed like things would turn out ugly.
Sometimes our ideas of what our tapestry would look like were stretched.
Sometimes we couldn’t see past the thread being woven to remember who was weaving.
But now. Now looking back. Look at the beauty. Look how they all fit together. A story told to be retold, revealing the beauty that The Artist had in mind. It is gorgeous. Not without it’s pulls in the thread. Not without sweat and tears staining the weaving. But all for the glory of the Artist.
Faith that He knew what he was doing. That he had a plan for how all the threads would look together. Looking back over the last two years I wouldn’t change a single thing.
And look now.
And we’re not done yet.
Thank you Jesus for weaving things in that we would have never considered.
I love you Bella. My Bella. My daughter. Forever. Happy two years.