Our newest addition, who I have settled on calling Bella, loves to play outside. I think after being cooped up in the hospital for five days, she was going a bit stir crazy. Every moment she is asking to go out.
I think she spends a lot of time outside when she is at home, and so it makes her feel a little less homesick to be out there. Her sickness also makes her get cold much easier than most, so I think the heat is a welcome reprieve from the air conditioning for her.
So we’ve spent a lot of time at the park the last two days – which doesn’t have Sylvia complaining either!
It seems like typically with kids we have had, with the honeymoon period comes a fake happiness, covering up what they are really feeling. That hasn’t been true this time. Bella is very sad and expresses her feelings pretty openly, which I can only think is good for her.
I wish so badly that she could stay here. We’ve always said that we would never ask a child to leave unless it wasn’t safe for them to be here, either for them or for other children in the home. And really that’s the case here. I am not capable of caring for her long term in the ways she needs while still providing everything that the other children in our home need. I am hopeful that one of her relatives are able to take care of her where she will be comfortable and things would be familiar.
We went out yesterday and got a bunch of pretty new clothes for her and some flip flops, which are by far her favorite purchase. She was excited to pick out a couple of new dresses.
Bed time is the hardest time for her, and for now we have a toddler bed set up in our room so that she can be close to us. Food will be a challenge. The only things she asks for are Pepsi, Pop Tarts, and Frosted Flakes – and really mostly refuses any other food. We got some Frosted Flakes, and I am trying to get some nutrition in her in other ways. Feeding a suppressed immune system sugar will only hurt her little body, so we have to figure out other ways to get her the things her body needs.
Please pray for her.