We had them get ready for bed and go lay down. Zee was overly upset, making it obvious that the early bed time was not the only thing bothering him. Unfortunately, as foster parents, we often get the brunt of the anger, frustration, and sadness that results from the crappy situation that they’ve been thrown into.
In anger Zee yelled, “I don’t even want to be a foster kid! I don’t even WANT to be here!”
Also in anger Jae replied, “Well Zee, I guess that’s just how God made us.”
Let me clarify a few things.
You are not ‘foster kids.’ You are kids who just happen to be in foster care through no fault of your own. Your foster experience does not define who you are. Not in my eyes, and NOT in God’s eyes.
This world is broken. Some really shady stuff goes down because we, us humans, are broken. God did not make you to be ‘foster kids.’ It’s because we are broken that you are here. And it sucks.
But don’t you think for one minute that God created you for this heartbreak. God created you in his sweet image. You are so precious in His sight, and he would give anything for you. I can guarantee that it breaks His heart to see you hurt so bad. He loves you more than anyone else in the world.
It is a lie that you were made to be a child in foster care. He created you with beauty in mind. With strength and love and glory in mind. He created you to know Himself – the greatest joy we can know.
Don’t you believe anything less. Don’t you believe that your time in foster care makes you any less loved, any less a child of God, or any less a beautiful creation. God created you as His child, and He loves you as His child.
You will make it through this. You will not always be a ‘foster kid.’ And I pray that if there is one thing you leave our home with, it is the knowledge of His love. He will bring you through this. And someday He will even use this if you let Him – but I’m getting ahead of myself.
You are loved with a love so fierce we cannot comprehend it. He did not create you for this situation, and He will not abandon you in it.
He loves you. I love you.
And you are not just a ‘foster kid.’