Yesterday afternoon I got a call from X-man’s foster mom to see if we wanted to hang out with him! Of Course! I was thrilled. I was beginning to think we may not actually get to keep in contact with him, so this was more than exciting. We hadn’t seen him in a month, so I wasn’t sure how it would go – little ones forget more quickly (enter: knife into my heart) and get confused.
We took him to the park. He really has already grown so much, and he’s looking older. We played and played, and barbequed burgers for a picnic dinner.
Check out that big boy hair cut – and I believe the fat lip makes him look older too. Ha! And that belly! Can you believe that seven short months ago this child weighed 12 pounds?!?!
He did seem a little confused at first, which broke my heart. But as soon as we played a short ice-breaker – throwing grass in each other’s hair – he was his spunky self.
Sylvie decided she wanted to see what X’s shoe tasted like – of course. Who could pass up all that tasty dirt?
He decided it didn’t seem like a bad idea.
Hello? Who is it?
We were so excited to see our sweet boy. I feel so blessed that we get to stay in contact with so many of our kids. I had forgotten how difficult the first couple of visits are after a move, though. When X-man left our house one month ago, in his mind, we were his parents. He was excited to see us when we had been away. He preferred us to other people. We knew all the ways to make him laugh. Only we could make it better when he was sad.
Yesterday when I went to pick him up, I was none of these things. I was no longer his mamma. He recognized me, but there was no laughing and running to the door as if to say, “Momma, finally! You’ve come to pick me up!” like there always was before.
I’m happy for him that he is not still so attached. It would be horrible for him if he was not able to let us go and adjust to his new home. But it is heart wrenching for me. I was his mamma. And now I’m not. It hurts. But like I’ve said before, it only hurts because we loved each other well. I do love this little boy. I can not wait to see him again.