We got a voicemail about another potential respite placement for this upcoming weekend. Three kids, in our age range (12 and under), and that’s about all we know. Most of me says, “Of course they can come here! What are their favorite foods, movies?, things to do? Bring it on!”
But there is a small part of me that is thinking that there is a possibility they would call us with a long term placement between now and then, and if we say yes to respite, we’d have to say no to that. Is this selfish? I don’t know. This could sound totally wrong, but I said I’d be honest.
I’m really looking forward to another long term placement. I feel like we can make a more lasting impact with long term placements, I love having kids placed with us who really become a part of our family, and I like knowing that I’m going to get to love on these kids for some extended period of time.
But, there is also this nagging inside of me, telling me that we should just help however they need us, and that if that means respite, so be it.
Ugh. I don’t know if I’m being selfish. This whole thing may even sound silly and blown out of proportion – but it is potentially changing the make-up of our family for then next several months (years?). Anyway, prayer and discerning comments are appreciated.